In this post, I promise not to talk about religion, mental illness, or use the word democrat as a derogatory term.
All my problems in life stem from the fact that people like. I don't know why, but people generally seem to take kindly to me, in spite of myself, and this causes great disaster.
I have never received genuine criticism. People are too nice to me to let me know when I suck, and where I need improvement. Because of this, I jump headlong into situations where I have to be on top of my game, only to find out that I have no game. Similarly, I have never received, or do not know when I received, a genuine complement. Because everybody likes me, I can never tell who
likes me, if you catch my meaning so. I've gotten myself into some real hot water, thinking something was one thing and it turned out to be another thing, mostly cause I can't tell the difference. Another problem is that because everybody likes me, I have no friends. I go around at lunch or any other time, and I can have a nice pleasant, friendly conversation with just about anybody in there, even people I don't know because people like me. The trouble is that no one there is actually my good friend. I have the exact same feelings about somebody I just met as I do about my oldest, closest friend. Of course part of the problem is that I've learned not to feel or express emotion, which prevents people from seeing me as more than a one-sided character. I know them all, they all like me, but they never seem to want to do anything about it. The one group goes and does things all the time together, but I don't ever get an invitation, even though I go talk to them everyday. They assume that my primary group of friends is one of the other groups I go talk to, with whom I have a similar relationship as with the one group. Clearly the problem is that everyone likes me when I'm around, I'm amusing and entertaining, but I am no more than that. It's good to have me around, but no one wants the trouble of making me go out of my way to make an appearance at a get-together.
People didn't use to like me. There was a time when there were very few people on my side. Funny, it's those same few people I can count on now. It's rare that I have a serious conversation in real life, it's all just comic relief. That's why this thing is here, actually. But anyway, at least when people didn't all like me, I had something to work with (how do y'all think I got so bitter?). Now I'm just that guy who does the voices. I'm not a person to these people, I'm a lovable character(s) but not a person. Everyone likes me, but nobody cares.
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